Reflections

Its 2.05am. Cant get to sleep. hmm...look thru my past blog entries. Suddenli feel that i think i have changed as wat huijing have said. haha. I have become quieter and inactive compared to last time le. So full of energy n lively last time. I seem to be a completely changed person. Now is dull and passive. Wow..sound so disheartening. I went for my ah gong birthday dinner today. And so coincidentally, my best friend birthday celebration falls on today. I have promised to drop by after my dinner but due to unforseen circumstances our dinner finished at 10 plus. I duno whether i have think too much or being sensitive...Maybe my friends already feel that i have neglected them. Although i no longer work as much as last time and bf in ns but i dun seem to be free to meet up with u guys. I began to love coping myself at home. Life seem quite boring le... wondering when could i write such happy events n craps like last time. Things changes with time, same for a person.

My last day in Haagen dazs

Wow 3 years 14 days in Haagen dazs. Yesterday 31 Jan 2007 finally marked my last day in Haagen dazs. Hee. Quite miss everybody. Especially the dish-washing auntie. Always gossip with her when i m free..always slack in the kitchen to talk to her..no more chance le..miss those adorable staff. Although u all are sometimes realli very headache but yet we still went through so much fun. Colleagues from esplanade,anchor point, holland v, springvale, vivo, realli have fun working with u all!! Me and Auntie..
Me and cheyrl...

Christopher and Rennie gave mi a $50 mango voucher n a chip n dale soft toy. Hee..so sweet. Thank u. =) Me n Christopher also give auntie a watch. Auntie looks so happy when she saw the watch. Christopher indeed has good taste. hee. Thanx for everything! hope to c u all soon~ =>

Exams

I m lazy....cant get myself to study. i m stuck to this computer...stuck to my yahoo auctions n msn? i got last 2 papers. Although its only prelim but it certainly have graded where we stand. As for me....i stand no where...haha. I seem to be studying on my own all over again from this cleanly retrieved book from the cupboard. The process is painful..haha. aRgh!! nvm...2 more papers to freedom...hmm...but this gauge seems real scary, because it realli make me no where to stand which proves that i would need to work hard for my final exam. KK..i got to go study for my Maths 2 paper now le...sobz

Mood of the day

Depression..~haha

I got an ah ma(grandma). Cute n cheerful...always carry a lovely smile on her face. But she got a weird illness recently. She will feel unwell when she smells something, maybe juz anithing new...eg shampoo, body foam., those with frangrance. Yesterday, i quarrel with her again. I juz bought an eye n lip makeup remover from 'the face shop'. I only use it for 1 day..1 day!! I cant find it the next day. It didnt actually cross my mind that it is ah ma who threw it away. I thought she had help mi keep it or i have misplaced it. When i ask her where is it, she replied that she had threw it away and scolded me for anihow buying items knowing that she got this weird illness. This is making my blood boil. It didnt cross my mind of respect n sympathy of elderly. I juz gif an impulsive ans of "ah ma! u cant do this u knw....it will make everyone dislike u." i m juz too angry. haizz...this is not the first time she does this. she threw shampoos n body foam away b4 le. Later at night, she came to mi n say, this illness is not what she wanted initially. If she knows this will make everyone so unhappy abt it, she will rather jump n die. Haiz...these words realli make mi wan to kill myself. Until now, i still feel so ....undescribable. This morning, she purposeli went down to the clinic and ask the doc whether her illness could be treated. The doc say she has nv heard of this n it cant be treated. i think it somehow got to be a psychological illness. Haiz..my eyes swollen from all the crying. Am i rebellious, unreasonable n being unsympathatic to my grandma. Sometimes it juz get so irritating. Did she do this to attract more attention from us? what a thought....i m a cold blooded heartless monster. haiz..

Anniversary

Happy 6 Mth Anniversary~ Our half a dozen.

I felt guilty

Had a sudden feel. Guiltiness..Those memories from sister gangs and npcc people suddenli juz gush into my mind. Am i being too cool towards them? Always waiting for them to initiate an outing? Ever since i got a bf, i got even less time spend with my close friends.

ML- Although he is irritating, being so sacastic at times. make mi blood boils when he starts his nonsense. He is realli a true friend. he will realli show up when u nd a listening ear or help. He also cares most for this sister gang relationship, always trying to create outings out for us to meet up n catch up. I truely treasure him this friend.

Stine- She is funny but she has serious mood swing. She communicates well with everyone in the group including me.. think i get along best with her. Her unstable mood is her bad pts. but most of the time she did it on ML. (luckily)* Suddenly miss her company...miss those times we spend together in ntuc, playground, srjc.....

PY- She is cool. She is frank..juz too frank. maybe sometimes she got no idea she may accidentally hurt a person. She is very motherly....takes care of everyone of us. she must be the most matured among us. although i seldom spend time alone wif PY but could realli feel that she cares for everyone of us. She treat this friendship realli seriousli. We seem to become stranger nw...no sms no msn? yah...its not my habit to msg ppl.

Seems so stupid to suddenli type all this. Juz wanna let u all know i still treasure u friends.

~!* Ta Da *!~